Suicide (Revision)

Dark images cloud my head

All I see is black and gray swirls everywhere

Demonic voices run through my head

How can I make it stop?

Jump!! Jump!! the voices say

Should I jump or save the soul that’s in me.

Colorful flowers turn a pale shade of gray

The sky which was once a bright blue color

Turns into a brown cemented color.

I close my eyes and feel a hot breath  pressed against my neck

A cold chilled air hits my skin

Goosebumps draws down my arms

Beaded sweat trickles down my forehead.

I can not take this no more .

I must follow these voices in my head that tells me to jump

I count backwards to ten

10, 9, 8…..

As I draw closer to the edge

7,6,5,4…

The pavement turns bloody red

Red splatter all through the cars on the sidewalk

I have relenquish my soul into the darkness

God please  have mercy on me.

Lost Soul (Revision)

If you ask me I would respond
I have no soul, and no heart.
The air that I breathe is suffocating me
my lungs cry out in horrific agony
my throat close up
please help me fight this pain.
the words I cannot respond
please help me I am trapped
trapped in a world where there is no purity
and all good things and people fade into black
the smell of sulfur burns the inside of my nose.
The only thing that I see
is a dark narrow hole
filled with demons.
Spikes around their face
and all of them with tongue of a snake..
As I look in the sky
rustic red colors swirl through the sky
No sun lives here
No happiness, No children
only sinners and heathens
who must pay for their actions throughout eternity

His Touch

As I lay next to him
I feel safe for once.
his soft velvet skin brushes against mine
why do I feel like crying right now
Is it because he is my first love
or that the world seem to stop when he enters my thoughts.
his lips soft like a baby's bottom
when it is pressed against mine
Is this lust?
my legs get weak when he come around
Am I being seduce by him?
his body make me loose my train of thought
I came to the conclusion that he is mind raping me
this is the best feeling ever
and I do not want it to ever stop
let this feeling last until eternity

REJECTION

I wait for a special message from him
a message in which I can share with all my friends.
his lips quiver and shake before he tells me the message
his palms get all sweaty, and beads of sweat trickle down his forehead
the room stands still as if god press the pause button on his remote control
my hearts beats faster, you can hear it pumping through my strapless diamond beaded covered dress
the rain stops outside and the sky suddenly clears up.
It is the middle of winter and outside look like spring as just began
As he get on his knees he blurted out four simple words, every woman dream of
WILL YOU MARRY ME!!
I respond back with no
the sky suddenly turns grayish
his face turns into stone
and all my surroundings turns black

No SOUL

If you  ask me Iwould respond
I have no soul, and no heart.
The air that I breathe
the words I can not respond
please help me, I am trapped
trapped in a world were there is no purity.
Ashes, to Ashes
Sulfur in the making
What I see is a dark hole
filled with demons,
spikes around their face
different demons, different motives for me to follow.
Rustic red colors swirl through the sky
No sun lives here, No happiness
only sinners and heathens who skin is tormented from sharp metal spikes
and body's limp from doing a long work of hard labor.